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Day 3 of Tackling Impatience: The heater repairing guy cancelled his appointment without prior notice... Only when I texted him 30 minutes before the appointment that he told me he couldn't come. Needless to say, this stirred up my impatience a great deal. I texted the guy right away when he could come then, and afterward, my landlord. I waited 10 minutes, no response, so I gave the guy a call and left a voice mail asking him to call me back once he got it. Normally, in these situations, I would react a bit more frantically which involves excessive text messaging until someone finally gives me an answer. But today, I decided to go do grocery instead :p Then I was chatting with my best friend about it. I asked her, should I be annoyed at this. She told me if it really was an emergency, then I shouldn't be, he would contact me back as soon as he was done with his thing. If it was not, then karma would come back to him for being irresponsible, so I shouldn't be annoyed eit...

Day 2 of Tackling Impatience. I've been doing night shifts from midnight to 8AM for 3 weeks now. Hence, during the day, I'd try to catch some sleep. The problem is that I'm living across from the landlord's son and the thing about this guy is that he's a kid/ adolescent/ early 20s/ late teens/ etc who just started University. After all these years living by myself, changing from apartment to apartment, I've learnt it's better to NOT surround myself with YOUNG STUDENTS. Wait, maybe that's a big generalization, let me fix it to: do NOT surround yourself with people who lack COMMON SENSE and RESPECT. Montreal is an old city with her old buildings which were poorly built with zero to none soundproofing quality. The walls around my bedroom are almost paper thin and I can hear everything happening in his apartment. Also, of course, my bedroom has to be next to his living room which contains his sound system. Isn't that just marvelous? So, 2 weeks into ...

It's been quite a while. I thought, maybe, I only resort to writing when my thoughts have become too overwhelmed. It almost means as if in the past 2 years I have not overthought for a single moment but it's not true... Many things have changed in my life. I counted the years and the course of events that ran from June till now and the number of people living with me has decreased to none, except for the cat. Maybe he can be counted as a tenth of a human? I don't know. In the most recent months, I have realized a tragic flaw of myself, one that makes every thing a little harder to bear and myself more reckless in action: Impatience.  2 nights ago, I cried to my Mom and then to my boyfriend while telling them how useless I feel I am and that I have accomplished nothing, perhaps, I have only come here to struggle. People keep telling me to try harder and to not give up. But sometimes, I just don't want to try anymore. The only thing I feel like doing has been giving...