Yes!

I'm so happy I finally know what I want to do with my life. I always thought me being born is a waste. I thought I shouldn't have been born for I contained too much hatred and loathe towards them. What can a person full of bitterness and malice accomplish in life? But now I know what I want to do. I simply want to help people. I feel deeply appreciated and happy when I see the joy of the ones I've helped that I forget all my loathing and vengefulness. For those moments only, I feel good that I was born, that I could do something to help and "Thank You" is the most powerful spell ever.  I don't want to waste my days sticking to the same office beating my ass off for cash. I want to go out there and directly help people. My mind will stick with that choice and I won't let anything/anyone sway me from that decision.

But still, that day is still far away I guess. To be able to uphold this decision, I first need to be financially independent. I need to make my life mine first of all. The road will be bumpy and there will be times you see me do something completely irrelevant but just know, all I do is just to achieve that goal.

Don't ask yet what it is, my decision. I want to come as close to it as possible first :)